A few weeks ago I had my graduation!
In addition to the 4 year program, I graduated from an advanced 2 year training program at the Barbara Brennan School of Healing where I learned to proficiently facilitate personal process for individuals and groups.
I had the honor to do the Graduation speech at BBSH and I felt inclined to share some of it here, since it transmits the essence of what healing has been for me:
I started the school when I was 19 — I am 26 now. I was always the youngest in my class and I admire the patience my teachers and classmates had with me. I was a little bit of a handful sometimes, but at least I kept things interesting.
The message I want to share with you today is maybe the essence of what healing has been to me, which became clear the day my partner and I received a healing at the Goddess Meditation. The night before the healing, we had a big argument and we didn’t feel connected to each other. Anger was hardening our hearts.
The first words that we received at the Goddess were: “Trust in the love that has brought you together.” These words touched me deeply; they melted all of my anger and defenses away and my heart overflowed with love.
This is the teaching I keep coming back to, to re-connect to the love that is already here — which is bringing me more fulfillment and depth in my life and is also the work we do at school. We become aware of our defenses and separations and invite unity into them; sometimes it happens quickly and other times, depending on how stubborn we are, it takes many years or lifetimes… and that’s okay.
At the end of the day, being at the school has been like being held in the arms of an angel. I have a lot of gratitude for my teachers and classmates, who modeled a very deep compassion that I had forgotten about. It is so good to see you all again.
For those of you who are curious about being a student in the Advanced Studies program, I can summarize our classes by saying that we stay connected to the present moment, even when we want to run away from it. Being in the present moment means that most of the time we don’t know what will happen next, which helps us cultivate trust. We usually don’t have a plan; we let our impulse guide us into what’s next. We cultivate presence and we learn to facilitate both individual and group process. Group therapy is very helpful because the group can give you feedback and support and also trigger you, which is a seed for growth. The group is one body and each member is a part of the body speaking.
Our teachers could really see our core qualities and support our growth, which we call a “developmental edge.” An example of this is standing in front of you right now. Talking in front of people is definitely an edge, and my teacher advised that I should practice tolerating the anxiety (which curiously enough decreased my anxiety), so here I am.
As you, my dear Year 4’s, Advanced Studies, and Teacher Training students go on your journey as healers, I leave you with a verse from the Radiance Sutras, a modern translation of the ancient text called the Vijnana Bhairava Tantra:
“Offer your heart to the vast mystery of the universe. Let your heart pulse with the life of the universe, without thought and without reservation. Be so in love that you are willing to dissolve and be recreated in every moment.”
Advanced Studies Graduate, 2015-2016
Graduating Advanced Studies Class of 2016 and Teacher Trainees